I look at my age and two things enter my mind. 1. I have been blessed enough to experience a lot both good and bad. Four decades plus is a lot of time to make mistakes, learn from them and hopefully learn also how to enjoy the life one has. 2. 42 is really not that old. While I say away from ‘why me?’ type thinking as it relates to the chronic pain more time is spent wondering how long it can be kept up. It does get difficult to make many long term plans when the struggle really requires literally ‘one day at a time’. . .some days a few hours at a time.
Due to the severity of the migraines I had to reduce my work hours. I am somewhere between 2/3 and 3/4 time I would say seeing patients in my practice. While it will lead to a big hit in the budget I am able to survive the days with more ease. I am able to manage migraines without feeling the pressure of falling further behind and also I am feeling less dread about the pain and headaches that are sure to come. Only this year have I realized how much torment the anticipation of feeling horrible later in the day was causing.
Thankfully the lovely wife has taken it upon herself to go back to work full time. Her benefits situation is GREAT compared to my own I just found out about it so that is also a stress reliever. Adjusting to having her around less to handle all that needs to be handled with Metal Parts Life and our doggies hasn’t been miserable. Gotta roll with the changes.
As for racing. . . has been a great year though this past weekend I got lost on a trail race. I fell (per usual due to drop foot) and scraped myself up pretty good and strained the hardware in the low back. Trail running due to the dust (asthma and chronic allergies) the terrain and frequent falls my NOT be in my best interests. It is tough because I love trail running more than I think everything else other than basketball. . . 42.5 is great but I have to be smarter still.